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  • Listening to: Talk Dirty - Jason Derulo
  • Reading: Nothing
  • Watching: Tipsy Bartender
  • Playing: Sims 3 ~/~ Age Of Empires II & III
  • Eating: Nothing
  • Drinking: Coffee
I think Over the past several months, my definition of family has slowly been shifting.  I have had a lot of different bursts of beef with many different people in recent months, mainly my mom's side of the family.  Perhaps it is because they still see me as a teenager, or maybe it is because they are under so much stress. Maybe it is because they are used to me just submitting and doing what I'm told, whether it was the right thing or not.  I'm not that person anymore.  I'm tired of being beaten down by people, and taking orders.  I want to do what I know is right, even if it means cutting ties with people I care about.

I'm not going to let my mom's side of the family use me or my dad anymore.  I'm not gonna just sit there and let people say that what I think doesn't matter.  I think that If I don't approve of being in the same house with my cousin when she has strange men over, that I have a right to say so. I think I have a right to be upset when my older cousin winds up getting pregnant, not even a month after finding out my younger cousin was having unprotected sex, even though I told her several times that she would put herself in a bad spot. I think that I have a right to stick up for myself so people stop using me as a go-between. I don't think that you should keep your problems to yourself if you have an issue with somebody, because that only makes it worse in the long run.

No, I'm slowly coming to terms with the fact that I am going to have a new immediate family, starting with Sam, my dad, and Sam's parents and siblings.  It is hard, but there is only so much I can do before I can't do anymore.  I love everyone, but they make it difficult. end of story.
  • Mood: Hostile
  • Listening to: bickering
  • Reading: Nothing
  • Watching: Tipsy Bartender
  • Playing: Age of Empires II
  • Eating: Antacids
  • Drinking: Nothing
I wonder if there is a limit to the amount of ridiculousness there can be in the world at a time.  Seriously. I get back from a two day road trip with Sam, and everything seems to fall to hell.  Lets start at the beginning, shall we?

We went up north to visit some family, coincidently we have been keeping Kari and Shiva with some other family of ours up there. Now, Shiva is extremely skittish in general, and they have had a hard time keeping her in their sight.  But the fact that she is now SKIN AND BONES makes me mad.  I had to drag her out of her hiding place (Which wasn't as bloody hard as they keep saying it was) and they finally decided to take her to the vet today. Come to find out that she has lost so many red and white blood cells that they actually considered doing a bloody BLOOD TRANSFUSION. How hard is it to keep a cat in one room until she is comfortable enough to wander around the house, or even outside?? I mean yes, I am grateful that they were willing to take care of them, but there is a certain level of neglect that has been reached in this situation. I'm not sure whether to be pissed or not. Rephrase, I don't know whether to press charges or not. I don't want to, but if she dies... I even SPECIFICALLY gave them instructions on keeping her in a room because shes skittish, how to coax her out of hiding, etc... I'm so mad.

Then we get home.  We had gotten the radiator on the car serviced before we left, so when we came to find that the car was leaking something, it didn't please me. I think the worst part about that experience, was that Sam's dad had to of been purposefully looking for some sort of flaw in the car. Why? Probably to stress us the fuck out.  It was almost dark outside, the leak was UNDERNEATH the car, meaning he had to of been checking out the car purposefully. We came to find out today that the leak was caused by the people overfilling the radiator. So all that greif his parents gave us about our "reckless driving" was found to be FALSE. HA!

Oh, but it gets BETTER. My aunt and my dad are fucking TWO YEAR OLDS.  A long, long time ago, right after my mom died, my dad was a chicken with his head cut off.  He didn't know what to do about his bills.  So my aunt decided to just mosey on in, put her name on his account, then pay his bills for him until he got his life back in order.  Sounds great, right? Well, after my dad DID get his life in order, and started to pay his own bills, they never bothered to take her name off of his account.  Come two, three, maybe even four years later, My dad has over 100$ STOLEN out of his bank account.  How and why, you ask?  Because my aunt's account is in the hole, and because they are the same bank, they decided that because her name is on HIS account, they can just use his money to pay off her stupid debt. So they need to go and get her name off before my dad gets paid next so that he can pay his bills and not starve. Now, to a normal human being, that would sound fair and easy. BUT SINCE THEY ARE FUCKING OLD AND STUBBORN AS FUCK, They will not communicate with each other.  They HAVE to communicate through me.  I'm getting the ass end of both sides here. I ask my dad THREE TIMES to call her today. Did he? NOPE!  I asked her to call my dad to set up a way to get things taken care of.  She sends me 3 really nasty texts, saying how "she needs to deal with him later" and how its not her problem to "remember when he wakes up" UH, YES IT IS BITCH. Your stupid account is gonna suck him dry, and I can't afford to pay his bills for him. She is fighting me tooth and nail for one of HER mistakes. This is gonna start world war 3 within my family, and guess who'll be caught right smack center? YUP. ESPECIALLY since I have a wedding coming up. I totally hate my life right now.

If I don't wind up in a mental hospital, I might wind up being back with a better journal. but for now,

-end rant
  • Mood: Approval
  • Listening to: The pipes in the wall
  • Reading: .HACK//LINK ~/~ Fate/Stay Night
  • Watching: Grav3yardgirl
  • Playing: Sims 3 ~/~ Elsword
  • Eating: Nothing
  • Drinking: Arizona Strawberry Lemonade Tea
I think I'm starting to like the idea of all of the changes going on in my life.  It's gonna be me and Sam on our own not too long from now.  That, and I think a proposal is coming sooner rather than later *knock on wood*  It's the start of a new way of life.

Pretty sure I'm going to be a big pile of mess when it's time for us to actually move.  It'll be the first time in a long time that I will be on my own for many hours out of the day.  The last time I had it constantly like that was when both of my parents were working, and I had to keep quiet and entertain myself while my dad slept during the day.  Now it's like a foreign idea in my head, since I've had so many people around me all the time.  Not sure how I'm gonna feel about that.  Hopefully once I have a job I won't have too much time to think about it.

On another note, Soooo glad it is finally starting to rain here.  It's been so hot for too long.  and when there is no money for swimming, the heat only bums you out more.  Well, unless your misty, who hates the heat, the cold, and swimming, all as a whole.  I'm gonna really worry about her social life once we all move.  Hopefully I can still get her out of the house at least once in a while (plus it would be a good opportunity to use the train!!)

...Well, that was a lot shorter than I thought it would be.XD oh well.  Hope ya'll are doing well. Bye!

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  • Mood: Content
  • Listening to: Talk Dirty - Jason Derulo
  • Reading: Nothing
  • Watching: Tipsy Bartender
  • Playing: Sims 3 ~/~ Age Of Empires II & III
  • Eating: Nothing
  • Drinking: Coffee
I think Over the past several months, my definition of family has slowly been shifting.  I have had a lot of different bursts of beef with many different people in recent months, mainly my mom's side of the family.  Perhaps it is because they still see me as a teenager, or maybe it is because they are under so much stress. Maybe it is because they are used to me just submitting and doing what I'm told, whether it was the right thing or not.  I'm not that person anymore.  I'm tired of being beaten down by people, and taking orders.  I want to do what I know is right, even if it means cutting ties with people I care about.

I'm not going to let my mom's side of the family use me or my dad anymore.  I'm not gonna just sit there and let people say that what I think doesn't matter.  I think that If I don't approve of being in the same house with my cousin when she has strange men over, that I have a right to say so. I think I have a right to be upset when my older cousin winds up getting pregnant, not even a month after finding out my younger cousin was having unprotected sex, even though I told her several times that she would put herself in a bad spot. I think that I have a right to stick up for myself so people stop using me as a go-between. I don't think that you should keep your problems to yourself if you have an issue with somebody, because that only makes it worse in the long run.

No, I'm slowly coming to terms with the fact that I am going to have a new immediate family, starting with Sam, my dad, and Sam's parents and siblings.  It is hard, but there is only so much I can do before I can't do anymore.  I love everyone, but they make it difficult. end of story.

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:icongetthegrooveon:
Getthegrooveon Featured By Owner Aug 18, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Stopping by to say happy birthday 
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DriftingFeather Featured By Owner Aug 18, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Happy Birthday sis. I'll call you sometime later today. I would do it right now, but it's probably too late. Hope you're doing well and that you have a great birthday today and hope things aren't too hectic. :hug: :hug: :hug:
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Getthegrooveon Featured By Owner Jul 10, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Heya Kat! imma watch you back XD
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Kiri-Taiyaka Featured By Owner Jul 10, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
WOOOOT!! Hi! ^^
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DriftingFeather Featured By Owner Aug 16, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Hey there sis, I know I won't be able to say this on your actual birthday so I'm going to say it now. HAPPY EARLY BIRTHDAY!!!!! There is something else I want to make for you so I'll have that submitted the week after this one coming up. I hope you have an amazing birthday when it arrives and many more years after. Gosh I remember when you were so young, I mean you're still young now, but gosh amazing about how many years have past. Again I hope you enjoy your birthday. :hug: Also again get well soon too. God bless and enjoy your days. :] :glomp:
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Kitsune1978 Featured By Owner Jan 11, 2013
Hey, I thought you might be interested in joining Gaara-Da-Man-FC. I've sent you an invitation.
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Kiri-Taiyaka Featured By Owner Jan 11, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Sure, that sounds great! I absolutely adore Gaara! :) But I'm not really all that much of an artist ^^;; I do write a lot better, however, if that counts.
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Kitsune1978 Featured By Owner Jan 12, 2013
I'm into writing rather than drawing, too :D I hope you'll enjoy your stay in the group :)
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Kiri-Taiyaka Featured By Owner Jan 12, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
I saw that, I'm reading your GaaMatsu Story right now :) It's very interesting so far. Thank you very much!^^
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PinkWoods Featured By Owner Nov 30, 2012  Hobbyist Interface Designer
Thank you for the watch! :D
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