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  • Mood: Stuck
  • Listening to: 2014 music
  • Reading: Nothing
  • Watching: Troy
  • Playing: Sims 3/Majora's Mask
  • Eating: Nothing
  • Drinking: Nothing
So the wedding turned out great.  Sam and I were all over the place, but in the end it all pulled together. Our honeymoon went good as well, lots of time spent in the hot springs and in snow. And best of all, not only are we staying in the place we are at for more than a month (Which is huge since we've been moving every month since august), But I am starting my first ever job on Monday.  It's full time, so I will always know exactly when my hours are, and I am starting at 10.50, which is perfectly great for me.  It will be nice to be able to know that we can pay the bills (and maybe I can start saving and buying stuff for myself again)

I'm not really looking forward to waking up at 6:30 again, but hey, it's only for the first 4 weeks, then I'll start work at 2:30 in the afternoon.  That will be nice, cause then I can sleep in somewhat, and I'll go to bed the same time I normally do anyway since I'll be getting off at 11:00. It's gonna be nice.

Now for the title.  I have been extremely exhausted all week.  I don't know if it is because of the stomach flu I had, or if it's from running around, but I am just so bloody tired.  and the worst part about that is that the house really needs a deep cleaning before I start work, and I don't know if I'll be able to pull it off with how tired I am.  I did go to see an APRN For my depression and Anxiety, mainly because I was tired of being put on mental drugs and told "Oh, you just havent been on them long enough". In reality, I'm not going to take them long if they make me feel weird, because then there is a risk of permanent brain damage.  So anyway, this lady is different.  She took my blood- a LOT of it - and told me that my organs are running fine, My Red blood cell count is high, and that I have a high amount of copper, or Hystamines.  I guess that's the reason I've been having ringing in my ears, which to me is weird, but I was like over twice the normal amount of hystemines, so I guess that would explain a lot.  I am also low on vitamin b-12, and I learned that there are two kinds of vitamin b-12.  There is the unmetabolized, which is the normal vitamin everyone takes, then there is the metabolized.  My body doesn't metabolize B-12 like it is supposed to, so I am lacking in the metabolized b-12 vitamin.  Hence why I am always so tired, and why I am "lazy".

Another thing is that I am low in Progesterone, which I guess is the body's natural anti anxiety hormone.  hence why I am always so anxious.  But with that all said, she's going to be raising all of that so that it is a normal amount.  I'm excited to be taking things that will be natural for my body, because there shouldn't be any negative effects associated with that.

But anywho with all that said, I need to lie down @.@ I'm exhausted.
  • Mood: Defeated
  • Listening to: Whatever
  • Reading: Nothing
  • Watching: Nothing
  • Playing: Sims 3/sims 4 demo
  • Eating: Nothing
  • Drinking: Dr. Pepper
So I'm getting married. In two days, to be precise. Not only are we struggling to find people to help decorate, but we are also behind on things we need to get done before the wedding. Like, preparing the car to go on a trip. Oh, yeah, Just to put this in here, we don't even have money for car insurance, let alone a honeymoon. and yet, we're still planning on being gone a week. Someone please explain to me how this works.
Back to what I actually need to get done. I have approximately 24 hours to get all of our laundry done, which I was supposed to do today but the person cancelled on me. Find people to help with decorating, even though realistically there is no one else TO ask, Get our pig-sty apartment cleaned and ready so that we aren't swimming in filth when we get home from our non-existent honeymoon, make sure that the car is packed with emergency supplies and have the fluid levels checked, finish up the music playlist for this wedding ordeal. Then, in the next 24 hours after that, I have to pick up the maid of honor and best man, pick up my fiance's suit, drop off the decorations to the head of the decorating party, make sure that someone is picking up our arch, make sure we have a way to use the sound system of where we are getting married, get my stupid nails done, go over the playlist with the person in charge of the music during the reception, and pre-pack everything we need for both the wedding and the honeymoon into the car. After that I will have approximately 11 and a half hours to get 4 people showered, have my hair and makeup done along with 8 other people, have the gym decorated, and ready for the reception, make sure everyone has a ride... Oh, yeah, and somehow manage to find time to eat, sleep, and pee during all of it.
Now, I had to have a very long talk with my fiance last night.  He does not comprehend joust how LITTLE time we have, and for some reason thinks I can do it all on my own. If I ask him for help, he either puts me off or gets upset, saying he has to work. and even after staying up 'till 3 A.M., I STILL don't think he comprehends how LITTLE time we have. And with his family breathing stress down my throat, Im not sure how I am going to pull all of it off without having a complete and utter nervous breakdown.
  • Mood: Content
  • Listening to: Talk Dirty - Jason Derulo
  • Reading: Nothing
  • Watching: Tipsy Bartender
  • Playing: Sims 3 ~/~ Age Of Empires II & III
  • Eating: Nothing
  • Drinking: Coffee
I think Over the past several months, my definition of family has slowly been shifting.  I have had a lot of different bursts of beef with many different people in recent months, mainly my mom's side of the family.  Perhaps it is because they still see me as a teenager, or maybe it is because they are under so much stress. Maybe it is because they are used to me just submitting and doing what I'm told, whether it was the right thing or not.  I'm not that person anymore.  I'm tired of being beaten down by people, and taking orders.  I want to do what I know is right, even if it means cutting ties with people I care about.

I'm not going to let my mom's side of the family use me or my dad anymore.  I'm not gonna just sit there and let people say that what I think doesn't matter.  I think that If I don't approve of being in the same house with my cousin when she has strange men over, that I have a right to say so. I think I have a right to be upset when my older cousin winds up getting pregnant, not even a month after finding out my younger cousin was having unprotected sex, even though I told her several times that she would put herself in a bad spot. I think that I have a right to stick up for myself so people stop using me as a go-between. I don't think that you should keep your problems to yourself if you have an issue with somebody, because that only makes it worse in the long run.

No, I'm slowly coming to terms with the fact that I am going to have a new immediate family, starting with Sam, my dad, and Sam's parents and siblings.  It is hard, but there is only so much I can do before I can't do anymore.  I love everyone, but they make it difficult. end of story.
  • Mood: Hostile
  • Listening to: bickering
  • Reading: Nothing
  • Watching: Tipsy Bartender
  • Playing: Age of Empires II
  • Eating: Antacids
  • Drinking: Nothing
I wonder if there is a limit to the amount of ridiculousness there can be in the world at a time.  Seriously. I get back from a two day road trip with Sam, and everything seems to fall to hell.  Lets start at the beginning, shall we?

We went up north to visit some family, coincidently we have been keeping Kari and Shiva with some other family of ours up there. Now, Shiva is extremely skittish in general, and they have had a hard time keeping her in their sight.  But the fact that she is now SKIN AND BONES makes me mad.  I had to drag her out of her hiding place (Which wasn't as bloody hard as they keep saying it was) and they finally decided to take her to the vet today. Come to find out that she has lost so many red and white blood cells that they actually considered doing a bloody BLOOD TRANSFUSION. How hard is it to keep a cat in one room until she is comfortable enough to wander around the house, or even outside?? I mean yes, I am grateful that they were willing to take care of them, but there is a certain level of neglect that has been reached in this situation. I'm not sure whether to be pissed or not. Rephrase, I don't know whether to press charges or not. I don't want to, but if she dies... I even SPECIFICALLY gave them instructions on keeping her in a room because shes skittish, how to coax her out of hiding, etc... I'm so mad.

Then we get home.  We had gotten the radiator on the car serviced before we left, so when we came to find that the car was leaking something, it didn't please me. I think the worst part about that experience, was that Sam's dad had to of been purposefully looking for some sort of flaw in the car. Why? Probably to stress us the fuck out.  It was almost dark outside, the leak was UNDERNEATH the car, meaning he had to of been checking out the car purposefully. We came to find out today that the leak was caused by the people overfilling the radiator. So all that greif his parents gave us about our "reckless driving" was found to be FALSE. HA!

Oh, but it gets BETTER. My aunt and my dad are fucking TWO YEAR OLDS.  A long, long time ago, right after my mom died, my dad was a chicken with his head cut off.  He didn't know what to do about his bills.  So my aunt decided to just mosey on in, put her name on his account, then pay his bills for him until he got his life back in order.  Sounds great, right? Well, after my dad DID get his life in order, and started to pay his own bills, they never bothered to take her name off of his account.  Come two, three, maybe even four years later, My dad has over 100$ STOLEN out of his bank account.  How and why, you ask?  Because my aunt's account is in the hole, and because they are the same bank, they decided that because her name is on HIS account, they can just use his money to pay off her stupid debt. So they need to go and get her name off before my dad gets paid next so that he can pay his bills and not starve. Now, to a normal human being, that would sound fair and easy. BUT SINCE THEY ARE FUCKING OLD AND STUBBORN AS FUCK, They will not communicate with each other.  They HAVE to communicate through me.  I'm getting the ass end of both sides here. I ask my dad THREE TIMES to call her today. Did he? NOPE!  I asked her to call my dad to set up a way to get things taken care of.  She sends me 3 really nasty texts, saying how "she needs to deal with him later" and how its not her problem to "remember when he wakes up" UH, YES IT IS BITCH. Your stupid account is gonna suck him dry, and I can't afford to pay his bills for him. She is fighting me tooth and nail for one of HER mistakes. This is gonna start world war 3 within my family, and guess who'll be caught right smack center? YUP. ESPECIALLY since I have a wedding coming up. I totally hate my life right now.

If I don't wind up in a mental hospital, I might wind up being back with a better journal. but for now,

-end rant

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  • Mood: Stuck
  • Listening to: 2014 music
  • Reading: Nothing
  • Watching: Troy
  • Playing: Sims 3/Majora's Mask
  • Eating: Nothing
  • Drinking: Nothing
So the wedding turned out great.  Sam and I were all over the place, but in the end it all pulled together. Our honeymoon went good as well, lots of time spent in the hot springs and in snow. And best of all, not only are we staying in the place we are at for more than a month (Which is huge since we've been moving every month since august), But I am starting my first ever job on Monday.  It's full time, so I will always know exactly when my hours are, and I am starting at 10.50, which is perfectly great for me.  It will be nice to be able to know that we can pay the bills (and maybe I can start saving and buying stuff for myself again)

I'm not really looking forward to waking up at 6:30 again, but hey, it's only for the first 4 weeks, then I'll start work at 2:30 in the afternoon.  That will be nice, cause then I can sleep in somewhat, and I'll go to bed the same time I normally do anyway since I'll be getting off at 11:00. It's gonna be nice.

Now for the title.  I have been extremely exhausted all week.  I don't know if it is because of the stomach flu I had, or if it's from running around, but I am just so bloody tired.  and the worst part about that is that the house really needs a deep cleaning before I start work, and I don't know if I'll be able to pull it off with how tired I am.  I did go to see an APRN For my depression and Anxiety, mainly because I was tired of being put on mental drugs and told "Oh, you just havent been on them long enough". In reality, I'm not going to take them long if they make me feel weird, because then there is a risk of permanent brain damage.  So anyway, this lady is different.  She took my blood- a LOT of it - and told me that my organs are running fine, My Red blood cell count is high, and that I have a high amount of copper, or Hystamines.  I guess that's the reason I've been having ringing in my ears, which to me is weird, but I was like over twice the normal amount of hystemines, so I guess that would explain a lot.  I am also low on vitamin b-12, and I learned that there are two kinds of vitamin b-12.  There is the unmetabolized, which is the normal vitamin everyone takes, then there is the metabolized.  My body doesn't metabolize B-12 like it is supposed to, so I am lacking in the metabolized b-12 vitamin.  Hence why I am always so tired, and why I am "lazy".

Another thing is that I am low in Progesterone, which I guess is the body's natural anti anxiety hormone.  hence why I am always so anxious.  But with that all said, she's going to be raising all of that so that it is a normal amount.  I'm excited to be taking things that will be natural for my body, because there shouldn't be any negative effects associated with that.

But anywho with all that said, I need to lie down @.@ I'm exhausted.

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:icongetthegrooveon:
Getthegrooveon Featured By Owner Aug 18, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Stopping by to say happy birthday 
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DriftingFeather Featured By Owner Aug 18, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Happy Birthday sis. I'll call you sometime later today. I would do it right now, but it's probably too late. Hope you're doing well and that you have a great birthday today and hope things aren't too hectic. :hug: :hug: :hug:
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Getthegrooveon Featured By Owner Jul 10, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Heya Kat! imma watch you back XD
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:iconkiri-taiyaka:
Kiri-Taiyaka Featured By Owner Jul 10, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
WOOOOT!! Hi! ^^
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DriftingFeather Featured By Owner Aug 16, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Hey there sis, I know I won't be able to say this on your actual birthday so I'm going to say it now. HAPPY EARLY BIRTHDAY!!!!! There is something else I want to make for you so I'll have that submitted the week after this one coming up. I hope you have an amazing birthday when it arrives and many more years after. Gosh I remember when you were so young, I mean you're still young now, but gosh amazing about how many years have past. Again I hope you enjoy your birthday. :hug: Also again get well soon too. God bless and enjoy your days. :] :glomp:
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Kitsune1978 Featured By Owner Jan 11, 2013
Hey, I thought you might be interested in joining Gaara-Da-Man-FC. I've sent you an invitation.
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Kiri-Taiyaka Featured By Owner Jan 11, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Sure, that sounds great! I absolutely adore Gaara! :) But I'm not really all that much of an artist ^^;; I do write a lot better, however, if that counts.
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Kitsune1978 Featured By Owner Jan 12, 2013
I'm into writing rather than drawing, too :D I hope you'll enjoy your stay in the group :)
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:iconkiri-taiyaka:
Kiri-Taiyaka Featured By Owner Jan 12, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
I saw that, I'm reading your GaaMatsu Story right now :) It's very interesting so far. Thank you very much!^^
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PinkWoods Featured By Owner Nov 30, 2012  Hobbyist Interface Designer
Thank you for the watch! :D
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